BRS Development on Hiatus

Well, fuck.

Putting Shit On Pause

I haven't worked on Black Road Sky at all for the past few weeks. I ran into way more bugs than expected, and will probably have to roll back some of the new features as a result. Which is a bummer, because this was already going to be a pretty lackluster update. It just got to a point where I dreaded getting out of bed in the morning, knowing that I would have to work on this game. Dumb, I know.

Black Road Sky isn't the problem, really, but it's one of the few time sinks & sources of stress in my life that I can choose to just, like, not do. I've been feeling generally overwhelmed and I can't just quit going to work (or can I?) and I can't just quit being dragged along in an unrelenting social, economic and political nightmare (or can I?) and I can't just quit perceiving reality as a bewildered speck of consciousness awash in a staggering deluge of universal suffering (OR CAN I?) but ... I can definitely just quit making my little video game for a while.

I feel shitty stepping back so close to version release, and I feel especially shitty for having suggested that it would be finished before this year. And I feel extra especially shitty because this was just supposed to be a little catchup release before moving on to ship systems, which I am still, even in my current state of minor existential distress, really, really looking forward to working on. But I've moved past the stage of beating myself up over it and am pretty comfortably into the ah, fuck it, this is just the way it is stage.

The Future of Black Road Sky

I have every intention of getting back to work in the not-too-distant future. I'm feeling a lot like I did around the start of 2022, and I've been considering the same 'give up' / 'start over' / 'muscle through it' options that I did back then. I've decided that it's definitely not time to give up, and although starting over does sound hella refreshing, I'll probably just keep muscling through. That's kinda my jam. Just need to gulp down a few lungfuls of air before diving back into the thriving madhouse of bugs that I've managed to foster.

Hopefully the world doesn't end between now & then, but if it does, you know, that's one less thing.

Coming Up Next

I won't pretend to know. But today is the first warm, sunny day we've had in months. I think I'll go for a walk.

o7